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Proud of my progress pics today.

Here I am after a good 45 minute wake up stretch. Hamstrings are tight as hell but I’m working on it. Debated whether to go to the gym or go for a hike. Muscles were still feeling sore from lots of squats a few days ago so running felt out of the question.

But a run it was! 7 miles. From my apartment through central Hollywood, through West Hollywood, to the Beverly Hills sign is almost exactly 3.5 Miles for a convenient turnaround point to log 7.

The heat at 8AM was already at the edge of being prohibitive but once the sweat got going, the breeze felt really nice.

Scale showed 147.8 lbs when I got back in. Down from 152 before I walked out the door.

These next two pictures upon returning home show the definition one can achieve from running. Already in the first picture, my pectoralis minor is shining through from underneath. A muscle I’m so proud to be able to display. The separation between my individual abdominal muscles has never been so prominent before.

The combination of my chosen diet (raw vegan) mixed with the gestalt style training I employ are adding up to results I’ve seen in my mind’s eye for a long time now and I couldn’t be more pleased. For me it’s proof that it’s best to shut out the noise of the world and listen within.

And I would be remiss not to mention my serratus anterior muscles wrapping around like champions. The shape of mine seem kind of unique in their own way and I love them so much. For sure this is a huge boost in confidence not only of my person but of my methodology.

There’s great separation, too, between my pectorals.

Giving myself the grade of an (A-) here just because I can still see better in my mind’s eye and that slight grade deficit will give me motivation.

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I went to a therapist appointment at noon and discussed some frustrations around my career. I was struggling to find an answer for what to do, when almost before time was up, she suggested I let my enthusiasm and passion and energy for fitness out of the box. To release the pressure valve. I imagine knocking off the pressure valve entirely. I’ve reached this climax where my desire to express my self and grow further is in direct opposition to the mechanisms of internal control placed on me by parents and society. Something has to give and I am choosing growth. Come what may. It is my turn and I’m taking it.

I simply cannot abide limitations to try to please these ghostly, ancient scrolls of burden.

It doesn’t help myself or anyone else. It makes no sense. I’m done and I’m moving on. I trust and take care of myself first. I trust God. I trust my intuition.

And if some day I find a loving companion who is a good fit, wonderful. But bitterly I have had to grind it out on my own for a long time. It hasn’t been pretty and even in times when I was in close relationship, I was made to believe that things were my fault which actually weren’t.

I’m not so gullible now. I’m not jaded- I’m experienced. I am wise from having survived all the battles and I have truly reached a new shore. While politicians move to destroy the natural resources we have left in the outer world, I have just landed in my own New World. But I am not a conquistador. I am not a white man bent on advancing my property line at the cost of the Natives. I am a native and I have returned home. With many scars. But the air is clean and my internal compass directs me to the clean water, the jungle, and not only gold but all types of beautiful and precious stones and metals. The plants and fauna are lush and thriving. I find my people. And I am at peace.

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Treated myself to (2). Yes, TWO kombuchas today as a reward.

They tasted so good I was tearing up… both times! Jeez.

I love my feelings. I love my emotions and I’m so glad the AAAAALLLLLPPPPPHHHHHAAAAAA RAAWWWRRRRRRR culture could never take them from me. They are the blood of life and no man is to be trusted who doesn’t embrace his emotions and feelings.

It’s time to be me.

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Thank you so much for reading this far. It truly means the world to me to be able to share my love and passion for this stuff.

God bless you. Make sure you drink some delicious type of tea today, be it herbal, kombucha, heck it could be earl gray. I don’t judge.

Be good to yourself. And until next time… Train Amazing!

-M